Choices

People say that heros are made when you make a choice. Your chioces define who you are. But what happens if  YOU-CHOOSE-WRONG?

What happens then? does everything just go back to normal as if it never happened, does the world come crashing down around you, does everyone seem to dispise you for what you did, what happens if you choose wrong?

That is one of the many questions that haunt me through every waking moment of every waking day. The fear of mistakes. Supposedly you learn by your mistakes, but, in the past most of my mistakes were to great to learn from. I made such of a mess that it could not be fixed, that there was no solution. But what if your just too plain stupid to realise how to fix or learn from your mistakes. They are suposed to be a learning curve. But But some curves are more of a sharp point more than a curve. Im constantly terrified that if my mistake is too big ill miss the curve and completly drive off of the edge. (if that makes any sense)

I hate living in constant fear, it literally rips you apart. tourturing your soul, but i have lived like this for so long i no longer know how to live any differently. But to those who know me, they may think this is just simply a lie. But i have to dissagree with them, i am constantly wearing amask to conceal my self, or should i say…

“I want to be remembered as the girl who smiled, even though her heart was broken. And the one who could always brighten up someones day, even if she couldn’t brighten her own.”

….I dont even know why i am saying all of this, i doubt anyone will even read this….no many people ever do unless i ask them too. And i doubt they will ever read it again if they even read this frist entry.

Fear of rejection, yet another thing that rules my pointless life…

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About mangagirl33
Hi there! Well about me....you could say im very 'out there' and ready to tackle any (well most...) obsticals. I wish to be a world renound author when im older. Either that or a manga artist. ......yeah, manga. Now dont get me wrong, i love the stuff: anime, manga you name it. But im not Otaku. Anyway, thats beside the point. What im trying to get at is, im fun, willing to try new things, curious about most as well, and willing to listen.....most of the time. So yeah, thats pretty much it about me *smile*

One Response to Choices

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